Yesterday broke my heart and left me distraught and sad.
We got to the daycare at 4 and went to the infant’s room to pick up the monkey. I saw a lady who isn’t normally her caregiver. And there were two toddlers in the room with them.
And my child was screaming.
The lady was sitting on the floor next to her, not preoccupied with the other two toddlers, but was letting our little girl scream her head off in the small soft round play enclosure. No pacifier even near her to show that maybe she might have had it in at one point, and had decided to pop it out, like she sometimes does. No. It was on the other side of the room.
The monkey was red from crying. Her eyes were wet with tears. The lady was all, “Oh, she heard you guys coming.” M made a comment to the effect of, “My child isnt afraid of me, so there’s no reason for her to cry when I come in”. I finally got my hands on her and she wouldnt calm down. She kept yelling. She wasnt quiet for another 3 or 4 minutes.
Julie’s not like that. I understand that babies cry and they get annoying and blah blah blah. But she’s really chill. And the only time I have ever seen her that upset was when I went and took a shower and didnt hear her crying. And then it took for frickin ever to calm her down.
I wanted to lay waste to that woman. I really did. I wanted to scream and yell and ask her what her fucking problem was. M did, too. And he kept making comments about the other children who were crying and how she wasnt attending to them, either. But I couldnt even stick enough brain cells together to form a cohesive sentence. I was that upset about the baby.
Later that evening, while the center was still open, M called and talked to the director. She was disturbed by the incident, too, and promised us that the lady in question wasn’t going to be taking care of anyone in that room, anymore. He made it clear that we love the other ladies who take care of our kid. Julie’s starting to recognize everyone and smile when they come near. This lady was just ridiculous. This is the same woman who, last week, decided to try to feed the monkey 2 hours after having had an epic 7oz. Of course she’s not fucking hungry, you whore!
Anyway. This morning was hard, leaving her there. We know the morning caregiver and she’s a sweetheart, and she hands her off to the main caregiver, who is also a sweetheart. Julie went to the morning lady and smiled when she tickled her back. She was happy again.
I have to ask… why would someone ignore such a sweet child, like that? Why would you leave her to cry all by herself? All she needed was to be picked up. You have other children to attend to, that’s understandable. Just pick up Julie and take her around with you. She’s cool. How can you listen to her screaming like that, and not want to make it better??
I love our daughter. She’s the best thing to happen to us since we met each other.
I’m sorry. I have to stop writing now.
Look at that smile.